| so, its been ages. I'm almost living in BFE, it takes me ten minutes to get to the nearest city with a grocery store and about twenty minutes to get to work. JOY<3 ugh. gas is fucking ridiculous and with me living so far away i have to fill up about twice a week. woohoo.
ill get back to this eventually maybe
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| i miss my mommy. i want to have one of those conversations with her where i can lay my head on her shoulder and cry out all the bad things that have happened. like back in the day when kevin or steve dumped me. i want to feel a real "mom" hug...its been too long. i miss not hating her, i miss being weird with her at the mall...i want to bring friends home to her and be like HEY! this is whoever and theyre awesome and i wanted them to see how awesome you are! ...its been too long... she saved my ass twice when i started rebelling against school...and what did i do to repay her? started rebelling against her too. for 8 years now ive been rebelling against her. and now that im finally not living with her im realizing how badly ive treated her. there are still a few things that i dont agree with her on, but i do take back all the i hate yous ive yelled at her. all the curses ive thrown at her. but right after i moved out i did sense a fakeness but i can tell its fading away... |
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| youre a doll and i hope you let me get to know you better... you can piss off and if you never talk to me again i prolly wont care... and when will you get the point that im just going to be your friend and nothing more? i guess ill give you a chance this time, but please...dont push, ill only back away faster... |
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| ugh i fucking hate my mother. ive never really wanted to punch anyone as bad as i wanna punch her right now... she was being fake with me today when i went to get my things and was trash talkin me to steve n cody, when i was only a few rooms away. she was bein fake in the sense that she gave me a half ass hug and kept tryin to tell me she loved me n all this bullshit. i can see right through you bitch. so did steve n cody. carissa youre in for it too, you were goin right along with her. on a lighter note, got to hang out with steve all day today, that was awesome! i like him alot, i really hope things work out...that be an answer to an unspoken prayer... |
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| im here at school. on a day i shouldnt be at school. someone made me come here though. but thats okay, becausde i like him.  |
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